Thoughts...

Why do women put so much of their hope in men? We hope for something that we know won't happen...in fact, we know that we will only be disappointed and hurt in the end, however, we continue to hope. Why? Wouldn't it be easier to not hope and just go with what is at the moment? That way we're never expecting something that they won't provide. It's very rare to find a man that will meet these hopes and expectations...and when a woman does, she marries him. There aren't enough of these men in the world, so most women are stuck with men that will disappoint them...and they marry them...only to be continuously disappointed. But the problem isn't the men...it's the women. We're the ones that are hoping for something we know we won't get. In the deepest, darkest crevices of our mind lingers the truth...the reality...the oh, so bitter imperfection. It's there, but we ignore it...refuse to believe or acknowledge it. Why? Because the "what is" is not as appealing as the "what can be". But even so, we know that the hoping will only lead us to much more pain and agony than the truth ever would. So why not call the truth to the fore...bring it to our conscious mind and prevent so much uneccessary pain and suffering? That's the question. We KNOW everything that will happen. We could lay out the reality of our future in our heads and we could side-step so many things if we paid attention to that. But we don't! Why not? Time after time we fall into the same trap. We hope he won't do it, but we know he eventually will. And when he does, we can't believe it. We're shocked, disappointed, crushed, hurt, devastated. Why? We knew it was coming.

These are the thoughts that have been running through my head like Olympic Sprinters for the past 24 hours. It feels so much better to have written them down. *deep breath* Now I can continue with my day. (: